Love Laugh Cry
It has been a funny few months since I last wrote here, the title says it all Love Laugh Cry, I have done a bit of them all lately. I Have been at some of my lowest points and at some very high points during this time, the joys of mental health. Since the last post I have had times of zero communication with my daughter who herself has not been very well physically. I learnt that I am going to be a Granddad in December my first and it is going to be a boy. Ffion has turned 16 and well I am now 55, yes I know it is hard to believe.
I started a new contract and spent a week in Germany at the start of July, which is ongoing. The art has been very quiet though I have done one commission mannequin lamp that is now in Portsmouth and his name is Dave lol.
At the end of August, I had a week in West Wales in my little old caravan staying on the site that it used to be pitched on seasonally a few years back.
During the last few months, I have done quite a few videos from the river. Journaling in a way or vlogging about mental health and general stuff. I called them bollox from the river and they are up on my YouTube channel. Being in or near water is always a great soother of the mind. The plan is going in through the winter.
Middle of September I had a message from Ffion and we have been talking again I have seen her a few times as well. Lewis paid a visit as well the first time I had seen him since before covid started.
Mood swings
Between May and September, I hit some pretty low points and yes I had those thoughts, I had massive anxiety attacks and deep dark depression. Days where a trip to the toilet was about it for me. Going in the river and doing the videos really did help during those times, also talking to the few people who I know I can at any time helps. In doing the bollox from the river videos I found a release, it was my therapy room my antidepressant. So September drew to a close like I said I saw my children. Work was extended and I started talking to a rather nice young lady, it is early days but who knows?
So where am I now in the middle of October? Well, I have given myself a talking-to and started a better way of eating, it is not a diet. More a change of lifestyle. Having an accountability buddy who knows who she is really helping. I have set a definite target set, a goal that I will hit.
There we are that’s the last few months put to words, which is always a good thing. Love Laugh Cry there has been a bit of all of them the last few months. My success rate at getting through the shit times remains at 100%. I know what to do it is just a case of practising what I preach. Take care, you glorious bastards.
Until the next time x
